when I was younger, I threw myself into EVERYTHING I loved with the most intensity I could muster. be it reading, fashion illustration, sewing, vampires and other science fiction or blogging. it was all I loved and lived, until I had ‘mastered‘ it, as best as 8 or 14 year old me could.
somewhere along the line though, those passions were left behind. things that weren’t left behind pre-sixth form were soon dumped too because of mental health issues and the huge workload. there was no more time for fun, I needed to be efficient, get the grade or pass the test so I could get on track for the future of my dreams.
only now am I realising that I needed those passions to keep me sane. work hard, play hard is the saying. and I’ve been all work no play for too long. I’ve learnt that with most things, you can’t just pick where you left off.
I need to practice relaxing, practice taking time off where my brain is not on overdrive, thinking of everything I must achieve when I’m next working. that’s before I’ve even started the fun stuff!
christmas (2018) was spent devouring books, I got through 5 books in a three week break and it felt like HEAVEN. yes, I am still behind in my uni work because of that, but it was so worth it – worth the peace I felt at the end.
I think 2019 will be the year of being intentional about relaxing, spending time with God and looking after my mental and spiritual health. it’s a journey I’ll share, to hold myself accountable and to get back into my old love – blogging!
photo cred: Brooke Lark